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[21 Aug 2008|09:02pm] |
thoughts i had in the shower/difficulties being a straight edge
if parallel lines come closer sideways, will they ever meet?
if they meet, does that mean they are touching, having a tendency to be infinitely near,
yet still kept apart by rules, by laws, by a sliver of space
or do they become a new line together?
and if they are just one line now from two, which line had to disappear?
which line had to fall off the plane?
is one over the other, hidden from view? then who gets to be on top?
(i eliminated this thought because lines on two-dimensional planes cannot be above or below...
they just say hello)
perhaps, most likely of all, they just stop being parallel lines altogether
because we all know parallel lines never meet
in two-dimensional worlds,
i don't want us to be parallel lines.
s
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[20 Aug 2008|10:37pm] |
horrible, all i do is miss people these days. i've taken so much time to go through all these stupid relationships and all i do is destroy destroy destroy everything that i loved/love. i don't know. all the homework i have to do is really just stabbing at my mind and i really, really, really don't want to fight anymore somebody get me out
[3am update: now my lit and my IS are both 90% done. like 3k of writing in one day. WIN]
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| well, |
[18 Aug 2008|10:48pm] |
life has to start, anyway. hopefully i get past the As and stay alive, that's all. nobody's going to be there for you ying.
i just wanted to put up Chris Walla's photo because i adore him x 100000 and i loved the green cardigan. he looks like a drunken bozo, but i think he is adorable and very tall. i was actually on tiptoes when we took this photo. Death Cab was not the most socially aware band i've seen live, but it's still quite awesome. especially in the second row THANKS MARCUS. i love marcus x 4092403924, btws.
it's kinda stupid, but tomorrow is the last PE lesson of my life. and cherrylene's life too. being in HC has meant so much to me, actually. even things like going for concerts.. having people like marcus and benpoh in HP is fantastic and a lot of people have made bigger or smaller impacts on my life just by being there. being in HC has been a very real, very intense, very present experience and i wish i could stay in that moment forever. but MAN i just want to get my As over with and get my brain out in the real world.
i make so many mistakes with people, especially people i like a lot.
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| 222 she's such an itch! |
[18 Aug 2008|03:13pm] |
so ryan's birthday celebrations on friday night and saturday night were pretty fun :) more to come this coming friday night! we're all headed to seven haha and it's going to be especially fantastic because hoi essay would've been over and done with by then, omg what a dream come true hahaha.
A and i went to the dfo at essendon (tullamarine) on saturday for a while. i bought an awesome black poofy jacket with bling-bling fur from witchery :D heels also from witchery (in my defence, they were REALLY PRETTY and they fit my feet perfectly AND they were at a really good discounted price!!!) and finally a white black-strapped tote from steve madden (also on sale!) and i've started using it for school already :)
this week has started off wonderfully for me! this morning A and i went to bailieu to photocopy secondary sources for hoi (we only had time and $ for 4 sources, but at least they were our best picks!) and i attended lit tutorial reasonably on time!!! considering i couldn't find the classroom, it's quite :O for me hahaha.
i'm so proud of myself because i did eap homework yesterday and worked out a budget for myself heehee. today for lunch i had small fried rice + honey chicken and i still don't have the appetite to finish the fried rice. go me!
功课：
+ drama script (asap)
+ email marc biblio (due wed)
+ hoi essay (due fri, omg)
+ MATHHHHHHH >:(
+ find math paper to hand up to get blue book thing
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[17 Aug 2008|08:27pm] |
i understand the horror and i fully agree.
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[16 Aug 2008|12:52pm] |
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expectations birth disappointment. we jolly well be contented and "count our blessings,1,2,3". but isn't this settling for what is mediocre ? aren't we taught to "strive for the best" because "the best (is always) yet to be" ?
"disappointment" and "expectation" are in life's package, deal with it, we are not robots. (/edit) you see the downside of this realization is that it doesn't bring about a new revelation or an understanding of a great concept. need a break through to get more score. never mind if you don't understand this part.
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| Basic Accounts, India, and LiveJournal Inc. |
[14 Aug 2008|04:59pm] |
Development Goals and Basic Accounts Last week we updated our development goals for 2008. Generally we noted a number of cool enhancements and investments to LiveJournal that we are working on, including improved search, usability, and site development.
We also wanted to let you know how we hope to accomplish all these things, and how we plan on paying for them. In order to accomplish our stated goals for this year and beyond, we need to increase the revenue gained from both groups of LiveJournal accounts: paid subscription accounts and ad-supported accounts.
As of August 28th, all users will be able to choose to downgrade their account to Basic through their Manage Account page. Additionally, we will start showing advertising to visitors who are not logged in to LiveJournal when they are looking at Basic Account journals and communities.
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Indian Flash Fiction Contest In other news, we are excited to tell you we've launched "Quick Tales" LiveJournal's first initiative for users in India, in celebration of India Independence day, August 15th. "Quick Tales" is a flash fiction writing contest in which we're partnering with Caferati.com, one of India's largest online literary communites. The contest's winners will receive some great prizes and it is open to anyone with a mailing address in India. We hope that users with an interest in Indian writing or just India will watch LiveJournal's ![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/sponcomm.gif) india_writing community. That's where the finalists and winners will be announced, so keep an eye on it towards the end of September! If you're in India then enter the contest - if your story is slick and quick (under 500 words) then you could be the lucky winner!
Meanwhile, back at LiveJournal Inc. We have updated and redesigned our corporate site. The goal of the redesign was twofold: first, to update the look and feel (Dystopia users will appreciate it!); second, we want to provide a destination for prospective employees, partners, and members of the press where they can access important information about the company. Kudos to our design team.
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[15 Aug 2008|02:02am] |
lost in seasons and shadows,
evidently there are shades of love we can still outgrow
i gotta send myself to school for the next 2 weeks cause my grandparents are tripping to london...
in simplest terms, fuck to the power of n...
how will i wake up?
i'm really, really scared of the next 3 months and when i get scared i ramble on and on repetitively and it's irritating as heck but i) i forget ii) you're not listening, so please don't be upset with me...
k i found some cheesey techno song i used to dig in secret when i was about 11 and it's really comforting.
(my heart beats like a drum like a drum dum dum dum dum dum dum~)
i'm gonna be so happy i'm gonna smile!
i dig studying, i'm doing it for a good cause, i need this. i need this. i will enjoy it! so that i will enjoy what comes after it.
honestly i've never felt the need for acceptance so strongly,
it's actually kind of pathetic.
but i want to go to university,
and if i do i'm happy.
tomorrow i'm making a list of things i will do after the 'a' levels. i thought about it and there are so many amazing and enticing things to do that thinking about them is almost tiring.
i probably have too much foresight (wow! be proud homeland!!) cause i just started worrying about not doing all those things i want to do after the 'a' levels, because i'm lazy. which isn't rare.
but wtf, i should just quit thinking and sleep sweet.
i need to hire a personal motivator or organizer, or both, or kind friend, or slave
or whore.
just someone who can make me shut up.
s.
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[13 Aug 2008|08:03pm] |
wish i could index my thoughts,
for a sense of completion, control freak order,
in every way & walk of life,
such megalomania,
such cosmetic happiness,
such want & waste,
i have the pokemon syndrome...
gotta catch 'em all,
s.
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| DEATH CAB IN LIKE 18 HOURS AND 17 MINS |
[12 Aug 2008|01:13am] |
i'm watching their MTVs on youtube and i'm totally disappointed by how literal they are.. b o ring. but alright then again their lyrics aren't the most poetic, although they are all clever and sometimes beautifully appropriated as well(and when i see you, i really see you upside down). other times, it seems a bit too trying(twin sized bed).
anyhoooooo i'm waking up early so that i can collect allowance from my dad and read my h3 books during PE. longterm MC ftw. for once i didn't go anywhere near city/town this weekend. when i stay home i study better, drink more water/juices, stay moisturized. also being at home saves me from all the microscopic dirt and stuff in the air.. biggest plus is that i'm totally serene at home albeit depressive rather than violent.
anyway,
today: integration, DE, math tuition, finishing up the IS slowly but surely, soba for dinner, the simpsons (:
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| 221 suddenly the air smells much greener |
[12 Aug 2008|01:49am] |
so anyway life has been very eggciting indeed, first with the whole beijing olympics opening ceremony which was completely mindblowing, then with going to queen victoria market to buy fishfishfish and my favourite vegetables (omg mom, LOOK I'M EATING VEGS ON MY OWN ACCORD!!!) haha like beansprouts! and other green things, and then at night we watched the national day parade on a live webcast and the fireworks were really pretty and i felt so touched and i felt my heartstrings tug, even if just for those few precious seconds.
yesterday (sunday 10 august) was adrienne's birthday! the night before (saturday) A and i headed over to lishen's room right here in cs swanston just to celebrate it with lots of other people and we were likened to chandler and monica, of Friends' fame hahaha how apt indeed! played wii, drank a bit and had a lot of fun doing random stupid dares. prem is ultimate at olympic rolling along swanston corridors, and if A were to ever get a bra he'd probably break it with his sheer fatness heehee!
last week was very taxing because i was sick with a recurring throat infection which eventually developed into a cold that still will not go away. and my voice is crackly and disgusting, not unlike that of a tranny's. today (monday) for hoi tutorial, my voice (or lack thereof) provided much humour for the class, much to my chagrin (of course). also, i was informed that my attendance has dropped because i hardly attended any classes last week, and even though i have MCs that certify my disability to attend classes, my % will not take those into account for my absences UNLESS immigration calls up trinity. how absurd!!!!! >:(
thank you A for always being there for me, even when my voice is gross and appalling and i look like a casualty from a hideous trainwreck, thank you :)
xxjoleen
(who is spilling things EVERYWHERE this is so frustr8ing)
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[11 Aug 2008|10:49pm] |
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& sometimes it takes a million fights over and over again only to realise what you've always had. It's not all the time you find someone who cares this much about you, your every action, your every move. It's not everyday you find someone so afraid to lose you. But it is everyday following that day, that you know you're the luckiest girl alive. & It's not just anyone you look forward to seeing first thing in the morning and right before you fall asleep at night.
I love you, bibs!(:
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| 08/11/08 Homepage Spotlight |
[10 Aug 2008|09:54pm] |
olympicgames08
The 2008 Beijing Olympic Games Community.
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| 08/11/08 Homepage Spotlight |
[10 Aug 2008|09:53pm] |
babyidols
A photo contest community for babies aged 0-3 years, in the format of American Idol.
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| 08/11/08 Homepage Spotlight |
[10 Aug 2008|09:52pm] |
muslimgirls
Where Muslim girls from all walks of life can share articles and discuss issues regarding Islam today.
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| sea lion woman |
[10 Aug 2008|11:53pm] |
okay, Shawn Johnson made my day. the USA gymnastics team is so awesome!!! i don't like the commentators because they talked about Britain so much >(
other than that i watched Synchronized Diving finals. China won by a MILE. diving and gymnastics are pretty closely related in some ways.. i remember going to the toa payoh swimming pool and they had this rickety old trampoline there next to the diving pool. anyway, i totally respect athletes. being a professional athlete is amazing, passion for the job + fat paychecks = lucky.
writing my Literature H3 is so much easier than my IS! since secondary school lit's always been my best-performing subject even though i'm hardly enthusiastic about it. still, literature essays are the most enjoyable to read and write, and i'm happiest and most lucid in literature class. not just because i love mr B and mr P, or the fact that people talk the most crap in lit. it's rather sad thinking about leaving behind my English Literature education along with the rest of JC.
mugging makes me stressed which makes me want to shop G A A A A A H i really wanted to shop with my mom this weekend but we haven't been in a mall together since like.. Chinese New Year. i'm really in pain ):
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| bucky done gun |
[10 Aug 2008|06:08pm] |
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i get really aggravated when i hear about people who are against the Beijing Olympics due to the Tibet situation. it's really unfair to boycott an event that symbolizes so much for so many people, just because you're against the government of the host country. you're not just disrespecting the hopes of 1.3 billion Chinese, but also the thousands of athletes and their supporters. i hate how they do stupid things and even resort to terrorism just to ride on the media coverage in Beijing. they're just an insult to the human race and their cause simply doesn't deserve to be heard when they're doing it at such an inappropriate time! do you think Tibet is more likely to be awarded independence(if they even deserve it) because a) somebody smashed a truck bomb into 16 Chinese policemen protecting the Olympics, or because b) someone makes a peaceful, rational appeal to the Chinese government? NO, I DON'T MEAN THE DALAI LAMA.
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